Happy 20th birthday to my best friend in the whole world. We’re miles apart and we don’t talk every day, but we have this connection that never dies. You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. Inside and out. The most caring and loyal friend a girl could ask for. You never judge, but you always give me Godly and sound advice when I need it. You’ve been there for me through all my relationships and breakups; my laughter and pain. We’ve cried tears of joy and tears of pain together. (I’m actually tearing up as I write this) It makes me sad that I’m not around for your dance recitals and birthdays.. BUT one day we will be reunited and catch up. I love you more than I could express.. I miss you terribly and hope you have the best birthday ever. 😘👭👯
"I am not over my horrible ex."
+dates someone who reminds them of said ex+
My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you’re relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it wasn’t hurting you doesn’t mean you didn’t notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain. Therefore, move on and let go.
Harems: H&M || Purse: Charlotte Russe || Tank: @jerzapparel || (No, I didn’t create the clothing) || #ootd 😛
Over the past few months, I really let myself go. I started this “I don’t care/idgaf” attitude and my life continued to spiral downward. I started cursing (I used to only curse when I was livid), drinking (I’m legal, why not? Right?), and just “not giving a f*ck” because “nice girls finish last”.
I’m embarrassed. I am so embarrassed on how I let myself go. I’m mad at myself for stooping down to doing things I said I didn’t like. My heart turned to stone and I just want happiness.
I was starting to think suicidal and destructive thoughts on New Year’s Eve. I couldn’t take it anymore. I was in my “old way” of thinking. Old habits kept replaying in my mind..
I know I desperately need change and I am running back to God. I’m holding on to His promises. Praying super hard for patience..
I seldom ask for anything for Christmas, but my family gets me exactly what I would have asked for haha. #mindreaders #blessed #ilovefamilytime #merrychristmas
Anonymous asked: You shouldn't have to fake your happiness :/ You are so gorgeous and kind and funny and you have a family and friends that care a lot about you, I hardly know you irl but if I did I would try my best to get you to smile your genuinely beautiful smile :)